Encouragement and Hope from the Past

I've been going back and reading some of my past posts. I kind of hate reading what I write (type), but it was not too bad. I actually was encouraged by some of the stuff I posted. Is that prideful? I think I really needed to see my post from the new year 2011. It contained Lifehouse lyrics to "Hanging by a Moment."

Desperate for changing 

Starving for truth 

I'm closer to where I started 

Chasing after you 

I'm falling even more in love with you 

Letting go of all I've held onto 

I'm standing here until you make me move 

I'm hanging by a moment here with you 

Forgetting all I'm lacking 

Completely incomplete 

I'll take your invitation 

You take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you 

Letting go of all I've held onto 

I'm standing here until you make me move 

I'm hanging by a moment here with you 

I'm living for the only thing I know 

I'm running and not quite sure where to go 

And I don't know what I'm diving into 

Just hanging by a moment here with you 

There's nothing else to lose 

There's nothing else to find 

There's nothing in the world 

That can change my mind 

There is nothing else 

There is nothing else 

There is nothing else 

Desperate for changing 

Starving for truth 

I'm closer to where I started 

Chasing after you 

I'm falling even more in love with you 

Letting go of all I've held onto 

I'm standing here until you make me move 

I'm hanging by a moment here with you 

I'm living for the only thing I know 

I'm running and not quite sure where to go 

And I don't know what I'm diving into 

Just hanging by a moment here with you 

Just hanging by a moment (here with you) 

Hanging by a moment (here with you) 

Hanging by a moment here with you 

I pretty much just want this song to be my prayer for this year, with the you referring to the Lord. I want to let go of all the downcast thoughts and feelings I have started this year with and just give the year to the Lord. Surrender it all to Him, knowing and trusting that whatever and wherever, it is in His hands. 

It is not easy. I am a human, a female, with thoughts and emotions. I cannot just block them all out, but what I can do is surrender them to the Lord. I can tell Him everything that is going on in life. I can let Him lead.

Though my life, my trials, what I am going through does not at all compare to what Christians faced in Biblical times (and what many Christians still face) and what Peter was referring to I still refer to these verses:

In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith- of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by by fire- may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory, and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving te goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls. 1 Peter 1:6-9