So much on my mind...

that I just have to get some of it out.

Do you ever have those times when you think about something or a situation in your life and see it working out in a certain way and think "Somebody's been praying for me." That happened a week or so ago. I was thinking about something. Something I should of been praying about myself but the thought of praying about it never even occurred to me. Then I realized the situation was changing some in a good way. And when I thought about it I don't know how to describe it other than this overwhelming thought and feeling that someone has been praying for me. Not knowing what was going on or what the situation was but praying for me. There has also been specific moments when, the ones I recall have been on mission trips, when I felt like someone was praying for me at that very moment. I believe it. I believe in prayer.

Some of the changes I've wanted to make, I have. And so far have been successful at keeping at them. Some of the little changes that I don't know if I ever even mentioned help make a difference in the long run. I say long run, it's only Jan. 20. I feel like having a clean room, organized, rearranged, fresh color, it all equals a fresh start. Putting clothes where they go, putting stuff back where I took it from, preparing the night before for when I wake up. Little things. Little things can lead to big things.

School started Tuesday. I've only gone to school for three days and it feels like so much! I have classes 5 days a week! I don't like this! I let myself get spoiled having just Tuesday, Thursday classes the past 2 semesters (with a lab one other day, each semester).

I tried to put a bunch of positive stuff. Hopefully let it outweigh the negative I need to get out. I'll make it brief, put it all in one paragraph. I am so tired. I haven't been sleeping well for the past week, maybe even longer. I'm beyond just sleepy tired. My body is tired... Summer planning. Stressing me out. I feel like I'm causing so many problems with it. And none of it should be about me to begin with but that's how I feel I am making everything, about me... Ever feel like you're not good enough. I'm sure we all do at some point. That's not quite the feeling I'm trying to describe but close enough.

I need to rely on God.